Wednesday, August 24, 2005

This is mine ...

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

I can guarantee

I can guarantee
We'll have tough times
I guarantee that
at some point one or both of us
will want to get out.
But I also
gurantee that if
I don't ask you to be mine,
I'll regret it for the rest of my life,
Cause I know in my heart
You are the only one for me ...

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Is it love ..? Will it be for ever . .

Is it love ..? Will it be for ever . .

Her sight does make me confident
Her presence does make me nervous
is it love ..? Will it be for ever..?

Her day does make my dreams

Her nights do make me lonelyBut,
is it love..? Will it be for ever..?

Other flowers do attract me

Other birds do inspire my poemsYet,
is it love..? Will it be for ever..?

Waves do rise wonderfully high

but my castle is yet dryYet
is it love..? Will it be for ever..?

Should I wait, until one day

something in me would answer
"Yes, this is love & it will be for ever"

But will the wait be too long

until someday I would realize
the loss was love & it would have been FOREVER . .

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Secret Crush

Secret Crush . .

Your eyes entrap me
Every time you're around
I want to let you know
But I can't make a sound
At first I never thought
I could feel this way
But my heart proves me wrong
Each and every day
I'm trying to get
The courage to let you know
What my feelings are -
I'm so afraid to show
You're the one for me
But soonI'll let you see . . .

and i will wait ...

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Tree, Leaf, Wind & Love . . .

Tree, Leaf, Wind & Love . . .

People call me "Tree".

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a
lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good
figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I
liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her
intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that
I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was
also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I
was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't
have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her
accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I
have made her heart cry for 3 years.

She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my
second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled &
said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen
like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that
day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry
in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like
her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on
her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However,
I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and
walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking
with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know
deep down inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that
day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break
up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting
together..
I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the
School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once
I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How
many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her
presence?

During graduation, I read a SMS in my mobile. It said, "Leaf's departure is
because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf..

People call me Leaf..

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as
buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a
feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme
limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide
my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he
loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new
girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect
that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me
so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his
likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out.
You can't expect me a girl, to ask him.
Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany
him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because
of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue
waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me.
He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree.
In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing
in my heart.
I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left
the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask
her to stay..

Wind..
People call me Wind..

Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree,
so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I
first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new
school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing
soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone
or with her friends, looking at him.
When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked
at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit.
Just like, she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain
the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not
there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior
scolding her.
Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her
usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a
note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled &
accepts the note.
The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.

It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away.."

"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to
leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she
started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that
the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one
day I will make her like me.
Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times.
Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If
I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win
her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to
her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small
ray of hope.

Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply
from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you
didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I could
n't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly
changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell.
During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask
herto stay...


Moral..

In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose,
you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you
love yourself.

There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person
has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be
happier if we let go..

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine?
When we kiss?

This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want
to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the
world. It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those
who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only
they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our
lives.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's
when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin
to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love
fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again.
Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never
have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand
back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn
about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a
lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but
how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you
let go but how you hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward
tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever..

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's
available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste
on just someone . .


Friday, April 29, 2005

Unseen . . .

Unseen . . .

It tears my heart in two
not being able to tell you how I feel
when you are with me,
and the love I feel, which you can't see.

As I sit across the table from you,
Breathing the aura of your life,
Who would have known of a love so strong
That would surpass the eternity of this life..

Knowing I could never touch you, hold you,;And love you the way I want to,
I still smile sad tears that fall
Slowly down my heart.A
s you walk away from the love,
You never knew to look for the soul mate
I could have been to you..

I linger a while and watch you pass me by.
I realize you would never love me,
And I watch my heart break down and die.
My soul mate it is you..
if only you knew . . .

Friday, April 22, 2005

And Forgive Me . .

And Forgive Me . .

You forgive me for liking you too much,
And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.

You forgive me for missing you so,

And I'll forgive you for being so cold.

You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,

And I'll forgive you for not hearing it.

You forgive me for playing your games,

And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.

You forgive me for finding you so attractive,

And I'll forgive you for not noticing.

You forgive me for raising you up so high,

And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.

You forgive me for wanting to be with you,

And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.

You forgive me for being so pathetic,

And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.

You forgive me for not being able to let go,

And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.

You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,

And I'll forgive you for crushing them . . .

Aint this so much true ... dont we all sometimes feel like that ... i don't know about others but i have felt this way many a times ... somtimes one simply understands the things .. even when they are unsaid ... Love u my Friends :)

Kshitij

Thursday, January 27, 2005

I was waiting . . .

I was waiting, waiting and waiting..
throughout sweet teens..
till I passed twenties..
mid thirties..
with a beautiful heart..
over filled with pure lovedreaming of walking along..
moonlit beeches..
holding your armdreaming of getting lost inmist covered plains.
.dreaming of sleeping every night..
wrapped in your warmth dreaming of waking up each morning..
cherished with your lovedreaming of how hard it would be to..
spend the rest of the dayaway from you and your love..
till I see you at the end of the each daydreaming of how I would share..
everything in life with you dreaming of how I would sit by you..
so close to your heartdiscussing with you..
every detail in life..listening to your loving, caring words..
dreaming that..there will be somebody to rely on..
whatever comes in my way..
dreaming that I'd never be alone and helpless..

but where are you hiding..?
far or near..?
how long I'm being waiting and waiting for you.. dear..
without offering my heart and soul to anyone..
still with that pure , perfect, undying love..

when I'll meet you..?
ever..?never..?
I'm tired now.really, really tired,
dearI dont know how long I can wait..
may be I'll die one day..
never ever seeing you..
or your love . . .

This is so True, Someone righty said Good Guys Finish Last !!!

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Never go on appearance

Never go on appearance

A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted.
As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He then handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box.


Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book.

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day.

Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and had willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things.

When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped onto the inside back cover of the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words...PAID IN FULL.

How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?

This one is so much touching :) and i guess this can happen simply with any one, Take care Friends - Kshitij

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Never Abandon Your Loved Ones . . .

Never Abandon Your Loved Ones . . .

In order to renovate the house, someone in Japan tear open the wall.

Japanese houses normally have a hollow space between the wooden walls. When tearing down the walls, he found that there was a lizard stuck there because a nail from outside hammered into one of its feet. He sees this, feels pity and at the same time curious, as when he checked the nail, it was nailed 10 years ago when the house was first built.

What happened..?

The lizard has survived in such position for 10 years!?!! In a dark wall partition for 10 years without moving, it is impossible and mind boggling. Then he wondered, how this lizard survived for 10 years without moving a single step - since its feet was nailed!

So he stopped his work and observed the lizard, what has it been doing and what has it been eating? Later, don't know from where appears another lizard, with food in its mouth... AHHH! He was stunned and touched deeply. For the lizard that was stuck by nail, another lizard has been feeding it for the past 10 years..

Such a love, such a beautiful love!! Such love happened even on this tiny creature... What can love do? It can do wonders!! Love can do miracles!!

Imagine it has been doing it for a tired some 10 yrs, without giving up hope on its partner.

Imagine what a small creature can do that a creature blessed with the brilliant mind can't.

As the technology advances, our access to information become faster and faster. But the distance between human beings, was it getting closer as well?


NEVER ABANDON YOUR LOVED ONES. Share this story with everyone that has
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May everyone be loved... a quote from Cae Hiew: "Love makes your heart young again and magically erase all your wrinkles." So, start loving . .