Thursday, May 05, 2005

Tree, Leaf, Wind & Love . . .

Tree, Leaf, Wind & Love . . .

People call me "Tree".

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a
lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good
figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I
liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her
intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that
I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was
also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I
was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't
have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her
accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I
have made her heart cry for 3 years.

She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my
second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled &
said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen
like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that
day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry
in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like
her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on
her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However,
I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and
walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking
with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know
deep down inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that
day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break
up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting
together..
I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the
School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once
I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How
many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her
presence?

During graduation, I read a SMS in my mobile. It said, "Leaf's departure is
because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf..

People call me Leaf..

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as
buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a
feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme
limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide
my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he
loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new
girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect
that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me
so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his
likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out.
You can't expect me a girl, to ask him.
Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany
him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because
of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue
waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me.
He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree.
In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing
in my heart.
I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left
the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask
her to stay..

Wind..
People call me Wind..

Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree,
so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I
first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new
school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing
soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone
or with her friends, looking at him.
When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked
at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit.
Just like, she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain
the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not
there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior
scolding her.
Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her
usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a
note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled &
accepts the note.
The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.

It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away.."

"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to
leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she
started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that
the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one
day I will make her like me.
Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times.
Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If
I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win
her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to
her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small
ray of hope.

Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply
from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you
didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I could
n't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly
changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell.
During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask
herto stay...


Moral..

In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose,
you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you
love yourself.

There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person
has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be
happier if we let go..

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine?
When we kiss?

This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want
to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the
world. It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those
who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only
they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our
lives.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's
when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin
to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love
fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again.
Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never
have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand
back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn
about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a
lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but
how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you
let go but how you hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward
tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever..

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's
available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste
on just someone . .


Friday, April 29, 2005

Unseen . . .

Unseen . . .

It tears my heart in two
not being able to tell you how I feel
when you are with me,
and the love I feel, which you can't see.

As I sit across the table from you,
Breathing the aura of your life,
Who would have known of a love so strong
That would surpass the eternity of this life..

Knowing I could never touch you, hold you,;And love you the way I want to,
I still smile sad tears that fall
Slowly down my heart.A
s you walk away from the love,
You never knew to look for the soul mate
I could have been to you..

I linger a while and watch you pass me by.
I realize you would never love me,
And I watch my heart break down and die.
My soul mate it is you..
if only you knew . . .

Friday, April 22, 2005

And Forgive Me . .

And Forgive Me . .

You forgive me for liking you too much,
And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.

You forgive me for missing you so,

And I'll forgive you for being so cold.

You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,

And I'll forgive you for not hearing it.

You forgive me for playing your games,

And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.

You forgive me for finding you so attractive,

And I'll forgive you for not noticing.

You forgive me for raising you up so high,

And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.

You forgive me for wanting to be with you,

And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.

You forgive me for being so pathetic,

And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.

You forgive me for not being able to let go,

And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.

You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,

And I'll forgive you for crushing them . . .

Aint this so much true ... dont we all sometimes feel like that ... i don't know about others but i have felt this way many a times ... somtimes one simply understands the things .. even when they are unsaid ... Love u my Friends :)

Kshitij

Thursday, January 27, 2005

I was waiting . . .

I was waiting, waiting and waiting..
throughout sweet teens..
till I passed twenties..
mid thirties..
with a beautiful heart..
over filled with pure lovedreaming of walking along..
moonlit beeches..
holding your armdreaming of getting lost inmist covered plains.
.dreaming of sleeping every night..
wrapped in your warmth dreaming of waking up each morning..
cherished with your lovedreaming of how hard it would be to..
spend the rest of the dayaway from you and your love..
till I see you at the end of the each daydreaming of how I would share..
everything in life with you dreaming of how I would sit by you..
so close to your heartdiscussing with you..
every detail in life..listening to your loving, caring words..
dreaming that..there will be somebody to rely on..
whatever comes in my way..
dreaming that I'd never be alone and helpless..

but where are you hiding..?
far or near..?
how long I'm being waiting and waiting for you.. dear..
without offering my heart and soul to anyone..
still with that pure , perfect, undying love..

when I'll meet you..?
ever..?never..?
I'm tired now.really, really tired,
dearI dont know how long I can wait..
may be I'll die one day..
never ever seeing you..
or your love . . .

This is so True, Someone righty said Good Guys Finish Last !!!

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Never go on appearance

Never go on appearance

A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted.
As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He then handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box.


Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book.

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day.

Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and had willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things.

When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped onto the inside back cover of the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words...PAID IN FULL.

How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?

This one is so much touching :) and i guess this can happen simply with any one, Take care Friends - Kshitij

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Never Abandon Your Loved Ones . . .

Never Abandon Your Loved Ones . . .

In order to renovate the house, someone in Japan tear open the wall.

Japanese houses normally have a hollow space between the wooden walls. When tearing down the walls, he found that there was a lizard stuck there because a nail from outside hammered into one of its feet. He sees this, feels pity and at the same time curious, as when he checked the nail, it was nailed 10 years ago when the house was first built.

What happened..?

The lizard has survived in such position for 10 years!?!! In a dark wall partition for 10 years without moving, it is impossible and mind boggling. Then he wondered, how this lizard survived for 10 years without moving a single step - since its feet was nailed!

So he stopped his work and observed the lizard, what has it been doing and what has it been eating? Later, don't know from where appears another lizard, with food in its mouth... AHHH! He was stunned and touched deeply. For the lizard that was stuck by nail, another lizard has been feeding it for the past 10 years..

Such a love, such a beautiful love!! Such love happened even on this tiny creature... What can love do? It can do wonders!! Love can do miracles!!

Imagine it has been doing it for a tired some 10 yrs, without giving up hope on its partner.

Imagine what a small creature can do that a creature blessed with the brilliant mind can't.

As the technology advances, our access to information become faster and faster. But the distance between human beings, was it getting closer as well?


NEVER ABANDON YOUR LOVED ONES. Share this story with everyone that has
touched your life and make you grow and understand and feel more about your \r\nlife. Share it with everyone!


May everyone be loved... a quote from Cae Hiew: "Love makes your heart young again and magically erase all your wrinkles." So, start loving . .


Friday, December 31, 2004

We Have Today . . . Live it .......

We Have Today . . .

Sometimes I think when I'm alone how life can change so fast,
We realize so many times that nothing ever lasts.
When we are young it seems as if the world will never change,
The world just keeps on spinning and our lives don't rearrange.

When I was just a teenager my whole life was ahead,
Having fun and living life with nothing yet to dread.
Yes, I had some problems but I never dwelt on sorrow,
I knew then that everything would work out by tomorrow.

Then I reached my twenties and I felt that I was grown,
I could handle anything in my direction thrown.
I had my life ahead of me and nothing in my way,
I was so enjoying life in work and also play.

Then I reached my thirties and my outlook changed again,
Now the world was not so carefree as it once had been.
New responsibilities became a part of life,
Caring for a family now my children and my wife.

Then a new horizon loomed as I reached middle age,
I then paid more attention to the headlines on the page.
I was so much more aware of worldly news events,
Middle age awakened me to such a broader sense.

The carefree life I knew was gone of being worry free,
Suddenly it seems that all events affected me.
Worry of a world gone mad and worries of myself,
Worries of a stable life and worries of my health.

Worries of the future and just what it all will be,
Worries of the ones I love that mean so much to me.
Worry will not help a thing it only hinders health,
But it seems as I get older I can't help myself.

So as I sit and watch the world that has raced by so fast,

I crave to have that carefree youth that I had in my past.
As the years pile up on me they stop me in my tracks,

Making me just realize what this old world still lacks.

It lacks the love of life we had when we were young and free,
It lacks the human kindness that we once knew it to be.
So in this world of chaos as we struggle to maintain,
With so many worries it could drive us all insane.

Stop to smell the flowers and don't dwell on negative,

Take each day as it comes by and don't forget to live.
For if we live in fear and worry thinking of the sorrow,
We will miss the day we have by thinking of tomorrow . . .

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

A Successful Relationship . . .

A Successful Relationship . . .

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked his wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. His wife, preoccupied in the kitchen totally forgot the matter. The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and fascinated by its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband. When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words..


QUESTIONS:

1. What were the four words?
2. What is the implication of this story?

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ANSWER: The husband just said "I Love You Darling" The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in findingfault with the mother. Besides, if only he had taken time to keep the bottle away, this would not happen. No one to be blamed. She had lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her. If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world. Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiving attitude, selfishness, and fears. And you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.


"A successful relationship requires falling in love many times with the same person . . . "


well this simply was wondefull and superb ... i hope u like it :)

Monday, October 04, 2004

THE DONKEY

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal criedpiteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do.Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to becovered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbours to come over and help him. They allgrabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, thedonkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, toeveryone's amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. Hewas astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit hisback, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off andtake a step up.As the farmer's neighbours continued to shovel dirt on top of theanimal, he would shake it off and take a step up.

Pretty soon, everyonewas amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well andhappily trotted off!Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick togetting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each ofour troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wellsjust by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.
2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.
3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.
4. Give more.
5. Expect lessNOW --------

Be a good Donkey and send it across to all the donkeys youKnow.... Think like a donkey.....does this make sense....If you think'no' than something is wrong with your senses.....You have two choices...smile and close this page, or pass this along tosomeone else to spread the fun.

Sunday, October 03, 2004

A Very Good Lesson in Life

Jerry is the manager of a restaurant. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would always reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!"

Many of the waiters at his restaurant quit their jobs when he changed jobs, so they could follow him around from restaurant to restaurant. The reason the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude.

He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was always there, telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him, "I don't get it! No one can be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"

Jerry replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, I have two choices today. I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in a bad mood. I always choose to be in a good mood.

Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I always choose to learn from it.

"But it's not always that easy," I protested.

"Yes, it is," Jerry said "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or a bad mood. It's your choice how you live your life."

Several years later, I heard that Jerry left the back door of his restaurant open one morning, and was robbed by three armed men.

While trying to open the safe, his hand, shaking from nervousness slipped off the combination. The robbers panicked and shot him.

Luckily, Jerry was found quickly and rushed to the hospital. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his body. I saw Jerry about six months after the accident.

When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Want to see my scars?"

I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place. "The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have locked the back door,"

Jerry replied. "Then, after they shot me, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or choose to die. I chose to live."

"Weren't you scared?" I asked. Jerry continued, "The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the Emergency Room and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'He's a dead man.' I knew I needed to take action."

"What did you do?" I asked. "Well, there was a big nurse shouting questions at me," said Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to anything."

'Yes,' I replied. The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Bullets!' Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Please operate on me as if I am alive, not dead'."

Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude. I learned from him that every day you have the choice to either enjoy your life or to hate it.
The only thing that is truly yours that no one can control or take from you - is your attitude, so if you can take care of that, everything else in life becomes much easier.